I remember the moment I wanted to end my life. I was just broken up with again and my addiction was at its worst. 

I was taking pills, drinking, and watching porn every night to drown out my loneliness and the feeling of rejection. I didn’t know how else to cope and the pain was too much to face.

I hated myself. I was living for what society told me to live by. I was outsourcing all of my value and worth as a man. In how much money I made, how I looked. These relationships and breakups were crushing me because I had no idea who I really was. 

I was exhausted, ashamed, and on my hands and knees begging for help, I knew there had to be a better way.

I started to look at my pain and take accountability for what kept leading to these breakups. It was like a movie, I saw all the times I let these women walk all over me, the times I didn’t speak up, the arguments I started, the people pleasing, and the times I never asked for my needs.

That’s when I had the rude awakening that this didn’t have to do with the relationship at all, it had to do with me. I was starving to be loved, to be seen, to be heard. I was operating from a place of fear in all areas of my life. My beliefs were running my entire life. They would end up self-sabotaging every relationship. I wasn’t asking for my needs to be met and I was playing small to not get abandoned. I was actually abandoning myself unconsciously. 

As painful as this realization was.. I was finally ready to unfuck myself from the life I had created- I dove into books, podcasts, breathwork, worked with mentors and faced myself head on. My emotions were no longer something to fear but a tool to check in. I chose new empowering beliefs. I was able to self-regulate when the shadow parts of me would rise.

I let go of the pills, porn, and alcohol. I slowly but surely began to love myself, see my worth, stand in my truth and would wake up excited for life again

I thought to myself, how many other men are out there are doing their best, working hard and honest jobs, dabbing it up with their buddies, but inside are struggling with the addiction, low self esteem, and even more heart breaking, considering suicide. 

The statistics and facts break my heart, most men end their lives after a breakup or a divorce. That is 1 out of 5 men.

That’s why I created the Connected Warrior Program. To remove the shame of addiction, heartbreak, and suicide and  help men lead from the heart, build powerful relationships, and rise into purpose with someone who gets it. 

The 8 Week Connected Warrior Program is a 8 week coaching experience designed for the man who is battling addiction, heartbreak, and has a lack of confidence with self.